Happy New Year All!

Another year and another uhh... year!
Hehehe. I hope everything goes well today with me on this 365 days.

I just finished cleaning 58 pages of platinum garden. Really tired now. Hopefully by next week I'll have it typeset and ready for distrobution. But if not... ahh well sorry.

Officially switched to my blogger LJ. Click here to go to my other one. They both have the same content except I can place whatever I want on my other one ;)
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*ahem* *ahem*
Click here please migs =)
Eat your heart out Migs! I don't care kung anong sabi mo! Basta! Google say's there is! and Google is DA BOMB!
Even Lyrics Download says so!
hehe for curious people who wants to know how this started.
View this cute flash presentation. from Ding Ding. You'll need a Macromedia Flash Player to see this. ^^
PS. Squating ng LJ, they don't even allow embeds. Seriously thinking of switching online journals. Prolly blogger or Tabulas, If i can get those comment thingies to work!

Ok... first of all, I would really like to say that I've now added another thing to my "Hate" list. Aside from needles, I'm now officially hate boats too. Compared to airplanes? those are worst. The first time I've experience sea sickness was when we went on a cruise, the constant rocking of the boat would be enough to make anyone puke. Also went on ACP yesterday, normally it would be an OK trip but for some reason I wasn't in an excursion mood. I really felt bored on the trip because all we saw was bullets, bullets and more bullets... couple of cannon. But basically all war stuff. I can't seem to find the interest to like listen to the tour guide because compared to other countries? our history seems a bit filled with war. It gets repetitious as the trip went on. The company wasn't bad though (Migs and his friend) but I wasn't just in the mood to go out I think. But since we paid like 1350 pesos? around that amount, I had to go. Total ripoff believe me. I would rather have the money back. Anyhow... the trip was uneventful. Dunno how to explain it.

Also! I've been playing tantra ^^ here are some pics that I've finally been able to get.

This is me, She and Enzo.


Me, She and Gerald.


Me, She and Migs,


Me at lvl 20ish costume.


Still me at lvl 30ish costume.

Wonder if I forgot to get a pic of someone?

Going to the dentist is one of the most excruciating experience I have ever done in my whole life. I can't even express how much the process hurt so much. I cried buckets of tears because one of my stupid tooth was so stubborn in remaining in my gums. And to top it all off it was done around 2 hours. The ordeal is done but I'm having splitting headaches, my eyes really hurt and my throat is sore. I can't even swallow straight because i spent 2 hours having an ice pack on my cheek. Even now around 4 hours has passed and I still spit out blood. Take it from me... I really can't find the right words but it FUCKING HURTS. It soooo FUCKING hurts that I was praying to God to just have the ordeal over. A bit dramatic but seriously. If you spent like 2 hours in constant pain you would just wish someone hit you with a bat and knock you unconcious.
The most horrifying thing to this is that I have to get 4 tooth out... and they've only taken out 2. I saw my X ray and there's going to be complications again on my lower left teeth. I have this nagging feeling that I'll be redoing this experience once again. fuck... why does my teeth have to be so damn hard.

Seems like I have been having a string of bad luck for the past few weeks. Starting from spraining on my ankle, then when I went to the province to get it "hilot" the albularyo said that I have a spirit residing on my toilet... weird... but still scary. Then a couple of day my hard drive crashed. Lost around 60 gigs worth of data. Then this coming wednesday I'm suppose to get my molars taken out by the dentist because it might become impacted when I don't. If there's some things that I am deathly afraid off:

1. Ghosts and super natural stuff because I can't control those and coz I really have a long lasting imagination.
2. Needles, thats why I don't know my own blood type
3. Something happening to my computer because its data intensive. If I lost a hard drive, damage is extensive.

So far 2 things happened already and this wednesday the third is going to happen.

Heh.

Broke my foot today. ^^ hehe can't walk and I got it bandaged. Its a minor injury and its kinda stupid on how I got it but still.. ehehe... fell down trying to get something from a high cabinet. I'm never going to do that again. Also I now hop when I want to get to go somewhere.

Had my ever first pedicure ^^ its awfully cute. I got pink nailpolish. Ironically haha I've chipped it like the first hour that I had it done. And chipped it again the 2nd day. =) I'm really not meant for girly stuff I think.

Ok, I'll try writing this down while its still fresh in my mind. Right now I'm really pissed on my mother (no big surprise) because she forced me to go to mass. Yes, I know your suppose to go to mass because its part of your duty as a Christian but sadly I don't agree to that. That wasn't so bad but what irritated me more is that I said "No, I didn't want to go" and she ORDERED me to do it. Hypocritically, she went into my room and started preaching how
"I should give thanks to the many blessing that God gave me..." and all the stuff. Don't get me wrong, I'm aware of the things that God has given me and I am really grateful for it but I just show it in another way. I had told her to
"Don't force a religion to me" and she replied "But I'm not forcing you to go, look at your sister (my sister is in the US right now) she goes to mass with your aunt."
"I just wanted someone to go with me to mass."
Oh joys and joys... she wanted me to go to mass so that she would have someone to go with her. Rather dignified don't you think?
It's strange and almost annoying how she manages to coat her "supposed good reasons" with her own motives and agenda. What ticked me off isn't the fact that she forced me to go. I'm used to being bossed around my mom. Hell, I even accept that's how life is supposed to be and I don't begrundge that but what I hated about what she did is that she wasn't even honest about it. Or should I say, couldn't even be up front with it?
Lately, I can't exactly remember when it started but... I just don't have it in me sometimes to believe in the church, more specifically the Christian Church. I'm most prolly walking into a taboo subject but I can't help but think that its just too much to handle right now. My faith is dwindling, it has been for a very long time now but I can't completely let go of it because (if I'm willing to admit it) I'm too afraid of the consequences that it would bring. Ironically I've been studying about "Philosophy of Religion" (PH103) and we encounted an Philosopher named Kojeve who was an atheist. He reasoned out that it is possible to have a religion without necessarily needing a God and I mentioned this to my teacher. He told me about not being afraid to go beyond the lines.
Religion is suppose to be something that would give you freedom. Something that would allow you to broaden what you know and grow as an individual. But why do I feel so caged then? I feel so suffocated with being a Christian sometimes that I can't even breathe. I can't change my religion because I'm too afraid. The gates of hell is already in the back of my mind. Yet I can't help but question the system. Why do we follow a set of rules and duties that only mortal men wrote? Men who are filled with flaws and infalliables. Who is to say that nun's cannot be priest? Who can even testify that mass are even needed? Why do they even baptize children when they don't even fully know what religion is? I maybe overthinking this a bit but there must be something wrong if I'm doubting like this. Maybe I have some loose marbles or overly taxed brain. I don't know. Its just that I really hate being a Christian right now and religion isn't suppose to be like this... right?

I've finally finished doing all my exams and I can finally get some rest. Sadly I only have around a week to rest but at least I still have a bit of time to unwind rather than studying non-stop. Though I'm rather feeling lazy at the moment but I've expected that to be that way. Nothing really beats having nothing to worry about or at least no responsibility at the moment. I've already watched a couple of shows that I've taped on my VHS thats around 4 weeks delayed. Haha I'ts kinda sad but at least I would be able to see the end of the shows. Its not so bad though. I think my next agenda is to fix my room, I got tons of scratch paper and a couple of xerox that I need to sort out. But... for now, I pretty much enjoy acting like a sloth. Happy ain't it?
Oh! CSI 5th Season is out ^________________________^
Cuteness :)

My all time high speed so far this month. A whoopin 289.3kb per sec. . Its so fast ^____________^ Wish me luck on my tests!

I've haven't been blogging lately, must be because there's a lot of things that needs to be done. Not much stuff to say lately either. Though I did get my books from LA and I've just receieved a new phone from my mom. ^^ I'm currently borrowing it and see if I like using it. I did however read some of the blogs of other people and it made me think. Think about what? well a lot of things but mainly my life in general. I've been so busy usually with all the things that needs to be done in school that I haven't stopped to think on what I would want to do when I graduate. And to be truthful... I have no plans whatsoever, what's scarier is that when I DO think about it, nothing comes in mind. I feel really uncertain right now. A similar feeling that I had when I was in high school choosing for a college to enter to. It seems my life is just a mismatch of uncertainties in life. Which makes me wonder if I'll be able to accomplish something... anything because I just don't know about everything. Makes me think that I won't be able to do anything BIG because of this. Its not a bad feeling but oftentimes it leads me to think about how it makes me life aimless and I seem to be wandering in just a big blue grassland. With no destination, no road to follow nor even a small crumb of bread to guide my way. Would it be too bad if I asked God or anyone out there for a sigh? or some beacon that could help me go my way? It seems cliche but its easier to decide if you have fate bearing down your neck. At least its something preordained already.

found this cute GIF from the manga death note. ^^ just had to place it in.

My things to do seems to be getting shorter and shorter as days passed by. Must be because its almost finals weeks. I have around 2 more weeks of school then another week for final tests. Though I still have a lot of things that needs to be done. Most of them are long projects and papers. Kinda sad when you think about it but well that how life goes. I was however successful in convincing my dad to lend me some money ^^ hehe I'm planning to buy some new toys. I will have to buy it before my mom comes home so she wouldnt notice that I've bought something new for my room. My mom's going home in a couple of days too... I have a bit of mixed feelings on that idea. Mainly because life has been UNBELIEVABLY quiet while she was away. Its somehow soothing and rejuvinating because you get to have a break from the stress when your with her. On another thing, I'm kinda apprehensive that she's coming beck home because I might not be able to get back on my old habits with her. In any case will have to bear it now won't I? My mouse in school is broken btw. I can't seem to make it scroll to the right. I haven't been thinking deep thoughts lately... too busy worrying about school to be worrying about something different. Still I do miss seeing my friends now a days, both in real life and in the virtual world. Everyone seems to be really busy and everyone just doesn't have time to go see each other. What's more worrisome is that you often get used to that idea that you don't notice that you haven't been seeing them. I'm rambling I know... gomen. I'm regressing a bit. Must be because I'm really bored right now and thoughts just float on my head.

omg, I swear I'm so jinxed. I can't explain it right not but I'm so jinxed!!!

OMG OMG OMG I got the Star Ocean cds!!! I'm so happy right now but ironically it came in with a bad timing because I have a test this coming Friday and I have a meeting on this saturday. Recollection on sunday and an eating out with my clan on the night of sunday. I can't touch my ps2!! such torture~ wahh but at least I can play it whenever I want. Waii! Waii! Waii! Banzai! Also forgot to mention... been watching a lot of shows lately ^^ like CSI:Miami 3rd season, Charmed 3rd Season, CSI:New York, Joey, Who's line is it Season 6 :) I'm trying to keep up to date with the shows from the US ^^

I can almost say a whole sentence without coughing! its a good thing :D though my throat kinda itches still when I talk, but at least my throat doesn't seem to hurt as much. What's happening in my life? well for the past few days I have been working/studying/writing/typing non stop for my school stuff. I've almost done half ot the things needed to be done on my schedule but luck has it... it seems to be adding some more. -____- I haven't even updated the schedule. Hopefully I'll do one post it when I have the time. On another note, I seem to be noticing that a lot of people have been asking me useless questions. Its irritating somewhat because I don't care much for them. On the other hand, some people just keep asking me questions... like school related stuff. They'll go ask me if we have quiz on this subject or when is our next test for this subject... -___- do I look like someone who would actually know? well maybe I do look like it thats why people have been bothering me about it. But hello.... >_< I'm not even studious with my studies I shouldn't be the one they should be asking about that. I wouldn't hell know when the test is to what. I feel like some information desk texting people about their schedules because they don't seem to know. Annoying specially when my fingers are really feeling stiff and I can't seem to press the buttons correctly. On a non-school related note, I just read the September Newtype and I'm happy to say I am familiar with 3/4 of its content. Also they'll be doing a BLEACH anime really soon. I hope it comes out faster coz I read the manga and the storyline is really nice. saw from the maganize. Looks pretty good, though I wish I knew some japanese so I can read the words. Anyhow its getting a bit late... quite happy that I finally gotten around starting 2 of my projects. Hopefully they'll be done before next week. Feel awfully hungry though, have a sudden craving for chocolates and brownies but my brother happily announce to me that I can't eat those. So my stomach's grumbling and I can't do anything about it except eat stale crackers.

Ohhh so near yet so far. T___T I had it in my hands but my damn PS2 is picky about cds. I feel so sad T_T

One thing in life that I have a litttle bit of pleasure is knowing that I'll be seeing another episode of Naruto every week around friday or saturday. ^^ hehe I guess mainly because its something that's constant in this world. A more than good reason for Aone and ANBU to break up. Though I might say, I kinda feel sad that they split. On another note, I'm feeling a bit better. No more fever but my cold and cough's still there. Worst time I feel is that when phlem kinda clogs on my throat and I can't breathe properly. Sometimes when I'm really unlucky, cold air kinda hurts my nose or that I find myself bleeding. But then that's pretty normal I guess.
Another good note is that I read an article on this computer magazine. It mentions something about Live Journals being just added garbage in the virtual world. That people are placing in trash on the internet. Mainly because no one would be interested in reading on what you did today or what happened on your life. I kinda of agree with this but hehe can't help but contribute my share of garbage or trash on the virtual realm. Still it's another perspective on how people perceive online blogs and journal. I still have a mild headache right now and I occasionally feel dizzy, I don't exactly know the reasons for this but hopefully when I feel a bit better, it might go away. Also I've just remembered that I've been having nightmares for the past consecutive days... Not only that but I wake up around dawn feeling really sick on my stomach. Not exactly the stomach but I really feel bad. Like just unease slithering down my back. Its a very unsettling feeling. Then all of a sudden you feel like your suffocating, but this feeling only comes like for seconds. But they seem so long... anyhow its just weird. In any case~ HENGE! ^^

crap... I'm so sick >_< I have colds and cough which brought about my fever. Now I feel like vomiting... might be caused by my empty stomach or must be the sideffects of my medicine.